吃软不吃硬

hmmm... i duno if i got the meaning of the phrase correctly.

i think i am someone who needs to be praised, if u want to motivate me to improve. if i did a good job, please say something good. if i didnt do well, at least say some encouragements, after all i did try my best. to me, encouragements = i will do better.

BUT, if you think u can motivate me and spur me on, by giving downright negative comments, bombarding me with strong words and strong tones, u are mistaken. 我不吃激将法这一套!

someone tried something like that on me today.. maybe its my fault, i didnt put my heart into the task i was supposed to do. but i felt i didnt deserve to be blamed totally.

afterwards, the person called on my hp, saying that maybe the tone used was harsh, but it was all for my good. and hopes that i wont mind.

PAH!

the best part, the person kept repeating and repeating AND REPEATING that it doesnt matter if i have hatred or ill-feelings or bear grudges, as long as i understand the logic behind it.

Oof! how kind, should i write a thank you card for this "用心良苦"计?
its so obvious he's afraid ppl'll think badly of him, so he always wants to clarify later on. uh-huh. eh, if u dont mind being the bad guy, like u said so, then dont bother to clarify lah! just let ppl continue to hate you.

when i was on e phone, i almost said "its ok, 你说的话我没放在心上, i could care shit abt what u said. if u have nothing else to clarify, please get off my line now." but i didnt say. i only muttered "uh-huhs..."

i just know every improvement i make, i do it for myself, for my own good. thats all that really matters now.

moral of this entry: 我罚酒不吃，吃敬酒.

LOL