Tuesday, August 28, 2007

lost dvd...

btw, who has my Saving Face dvd ah? i can't seem to find it... or did i lend it to someone? *scratches head*

that's the thing with lending or borrowing from people. not that i'm chao kuan or what, i don't really like to lend ppl things. cos it either gets lost, or not returned in one piece. and if i do lend, i expected it to be short term, cos if lent too long, time goes by, the person or me for that matter, might have clean forgotten about it. den if i suddenly miraculously remember and ask the person abt it, the usual replies are "got meh?" and "paisay, i lost it liao".

this reminds me of a certain friend i lent my FRIENDS vcd to (ironic, isn't it?). duno she too busy or what, she says she no time to watch it, duno how to operate her vcd player, duno the discs put where... alot of excuses. sigh, it got to a time where i was too paisay to ask abt it liao. den one fine day, she told me she lost it, couldnt find it anywhere. i was like uh-huh... den how? guess whats her reply? she said "i told you i lost it, there's nothing i can do abt it!!!" in a very 理直气壮 manner somemore. wtf. my fault ah? eh, you lost the item tat you borrowed from me, i suppose its natural for me to ask "den how?" rite? still have to cheek to rant back at me. wtf?

after this incident (and many others), i've become apprehensive abt lending stuff to ppl. so whoever borrows things from me, don't mind me for occasionally asking the whereabouts and for unconsciously unknowningly displaying my kanchiong behavior, lol.

that's abt me lending. i also have a fair share of stories of me borrowing. lol. that time when half blood prince was out (how many years ago was that?), i couldn't bear to part my $ for that book, bcos it was too ex. and since my brother isnt gonna get it tat fast either, i had to borrow from a friend. when the friend lent me, he said he hasn't even read it yet, and asked if i could read it asap because his younger brother wanted to read the book fast. hmm, if he was that kanchiong for his brother, den why bother to agree to lend me? anyway, so i managed to read it within 4 days and returned him the book 3 days later, ie, the book was in my possession for a week. i was very careful with the book, i also returned him in the DHL (or whatever) envelope he passed me originally. ok den last month, he smsed me out of the blue, asking if his harry potter book is with me. err. so i told him i already returned him one week after he lent me. he said "got meh? i don't remember" and after several smses to and fro, he said "ok whatever, nevermind" i was like, WHAT THE LAU?! so he didnt believe me, that i already returned it? and is he conveniently blaming me for the unknown location of the damn book? wah lau!! i distinctly remember him constantly reminding me to hurry up finish reading, so his brother can have the book. now 不见了 den come and blame me. wth?

Thursday, August 23, 2007

cousin visiting from holland..

my cousin came back to settle some stuff... and he asked me if there's anythin new going on in singapore... i thought for very long time and i was like "err... harbourfront vivocity?" hahahaha.. den i told him maybe can check out night safari, bird park, sentosa, discovery centre (science center or watever) hahaha so boring loh, LOL.

we went to jb loh. walked around, did some shoppin, den we were gonna eat seafood, but i duno the name of the place in malay, i only know 大马花园.. so we were hoping to catch a cab who speaks chinese. tough luck man! a cab stopped for us, but he's malay, i was like "err.. taman.. err hawker center.. eat seafood.." the driver said "oh, taman sri (duno wat he said) hawker centre? yes of cos, hurry get in".. my cousin was like "correct or not??" hahahah... in the end, is correct lah. now i know the place is taman sri tebrau. lol. we ordered the 麦片 crayfish, it was yummy!! SO YUMMY! when we 挖 the 肉出来 in one big piece, it was like so shiok! we ate quite a bit, to me, its quite cheap. so to him, in euro terms, it was even cheaper! hahaha.

OH YAH! i suddenly remember. i walked past my house de kopi tiam on sunday, they were showing the liverpool vs chelsea match, just nice saw the referee gave chelsea a penalty, damn it, it wasnt even a foul loh! the chelsea player anyhow fall down one. damn pissed. liverpool was leading 1-0 loh! den end up the score was 1-1. so angry with the stupid referee. spoil my mood, especially since my torres scored a well taken goal in the 1st half..

Friday, August 17, 2007

super model

"come on come on 姐妹大步走,
通通都是我们的观众
come on come on 快抬头挺胸,
每个座位是你的后座
come on come on 来为自己活,
要相信自己独一无二
通通都别躲在角落, Super Model 这次换你做"

this song damn catchy loh. 可增强我自信心的一首歌...

LOL!!!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

feeling... down...

the 1st post in august, is not a happy one.

i feel so out of touch with the world. that time met up with ruyin, and i realised how far behind i am in the movies and entertainment scene. it can be considered a good thing, it jus means im busy with my work n stuff. but also a bad thing, bcos is my life really gonna be jus abt work? OMG. this reminds me of a dream tat i had. i dreamt i was meeting a prospect and i was actually doing presentation! its a good thing, it shows im still professional when it comes to work. but its quite jialat cos it occured to me "这就是我的生活吗?" the dream kinda freaked me out: am i really workaholic?

anyway. feel very down recently. work is stressful. personal life is plain n boring. close friends are drifting apart. sigh. i've come to realise i have my strengths when i service the stranger-type of clients. but when it comes to clients who are my friends, i have alot of weaknesses. what i hope to achieve, is for ppl to think of me when they thought of insurance, sth like "insurance? better to find eileen". that will be the ultimate sign that shows i succeed in this career. but not the other way round, i dun wish ppl to think "eileen? oh, insurance" maybe u mite think there's no difference. but there IS!

coupla mths ago, a gd friend of mine told me he thinks macham we're friends bcos of insurance. sigh. there's only so much time i have. i need to meet new propects, service existing clients etc etc, i hardly have time to hang out w friends. so wat i do, is to make myself efficient. when i hangout with friends, if need be, ill 顺便 update them. den no need to arrange another session rite? eh, come to tink of it, i realise the friend has too high standards, expects too much from me liao. lets sat i meet friend A for coffee, i kept it most professional, talk abt policy. he gets angry n says it feels we're friends cos of insurance. ok so i change my way of servicing. this time, i meet the same friend A for movie n dinner, along the way during conversation, i update him. he gets annoyed when i talk abt insurance. ok fine, dun talk. i meet friend A again, this time, we talked abt holidays, movies, politics, weather. everything but insurance. den later, friend A decided to lapse my plan n switch to another because he says i didn't tell him anythin. alamak, wat am i to do?

i remember a friend told me, im only in a pond now. if small little things like tat can upset me, how am i gonna survive when im in the ocean next time? den i realised, as much as i wan to, i really cannot be superwoman n please everybody. there will bound to be ppl who will lapse policies with me bcos of invalid reasons. there will always be ppl tryin to be funny. i already considered all these factors b4 i joined the business. i know this kinda thing will happen, especially when i start to do cases with strangers. i jus didnt think these same factors will bite me in the ass via close friends. sigh.

so, ALOT of ppl ask me "is being an insurance agent really that 风光 n good money?" my answer is obvious. got good, got bad. bcos of our job nature, alot of unhappiness can only 往肚里吞. when u visit the bank, u rarely hear bank officers complain or say bad things in front of u rite? lol. thats why ppl usually only hear the good stuff, and naturally they think its easy business.

another thing i noticed. some of my working friends are still super apprehensive abt doing CPF investments. they are afraid of losing as they hear alot of stories where ppl dun make profits. hmmm.. when u strike lottery, do u go around tellin the whole world u won? unlikely. but when u buy 4D n missed one digit, will u complain abt it whenever u meet someone? affirmative. its very singaporean loh. lol.

its good to do CPF investments, well-advised ones lah. ppl think they wont lose anythin if dun do any investments, i beg to differ. how much will ur CPF reserves shrink to, after 30 years, if stay stagnant? alamak, who's not afraid of losing $? i also scared what! but really tink abt it, if i dun take any action to make my $ grow faster, i will definitely lose. DEFINITELY.