Thursday, September 13, 2007
new pillow!!
i was reading sept's issue of LIME magazine (yes, i still read LIME), jessica biel's on the cover. she's hot! another gorgeous babe. anyway, i came across this joke on the last page. it goes like this: 2 couples decide to spend a raunchy weekend away together at a post hotel. when they get there, one guy suggests to swap partners to spice things up. after 2 hours of sweaty sex by the fireside, the guy turns to his new partner and says, "wow! this is the very BEST sex i've had in years. i wonder how the girls are doing..."
laughed my ass off.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
oh no...
kill me now.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
a funny dream.. haha
i wana and HAVE TO lose weight!!!
i was clearing my room and i found some photo albums on my dusty shelf. i was flipping thru it, remembering the memories and i realised, i gained SO MUCH weight over the past 2 years!! gosh!! this is the 1st time i'm posting pictures of myself here, the pic on the right was taken on june 2005 n i was in holland. den the one where i was wearing my graduation gown, its dated july 2005, one month after i went to europe.
i remember i gained abt 5kg during my stay in holland, when i returned, my friends were exclaiming "eileen! u've gotten FAT!!". yah, 5kg man! food in europe is like crazy big portions and lotsa carboh. plus, my relatives took me around n treated me good food n stuff, its difficult to not gain weight when i'm holidaying lah ah. u cant really see the fat here, becos its taken like the 2nd day i'm there, so haven balloon yet. haha! u'll notice the effects of good food from pics of my bangkok trip with shups n jane (i flew to bbk the day after i flew back fr brussels, lol) which i will NOT post, obviously. my face was so round man!! omg.
tat time i was tinkin, oh no, graduation ceremony's only weeks later liao, n i cannot be lookin tat fat and take pictures on one of the most important days of my life!! but luckily, i managed to lose the excess weight. without doing any exercise. yups! just like tat. haha. i tink its cos of the food here in singapore, less 丰富. den somehow, i regained to my normal self.
den NOW, when i look at those pics, i realised, wow, i looked so thin then! (not tat i was really thin last time, im comparing to now lah) my weight's abt the same leh. but my face seems to be so much rounder. why?? u friends mite have heard of my complains abt the head shots i took for my prudential card. wah lau eh, got extra inch of meat on my cheeks man!!
ok, i have to watch my diet from now on. since i've no time and/or too lazy to exercise and my metabolism rate is like slower than b4, i jus have to eat less of everythin. less sweets, less salts (bye bye potato chips, *sobs sobs*). ppl, jio me for sauna sessions!!
while i'm on the topic of my holland trip 2 years ago, jus tot i'd wana post some pics here.

tats me and my cousin. wow, jus remembered my hair was nice, naturally straight and long tat time. now my hair's like @#$%^&*-ingly shit!
Saturday, September 8, 2007
lost in blue 2
i finished the 1st one in like a week, with the help of cheat code! haha. this game is abt surviving on a deserted island, because of a shipwreck. my character is a boy name keith (i tink) and when i roamed around the beach, i found another survivor! a girl name skye. i like this game because its so cute! stay in a cave, go around collecting twigs for firewood and coconuts to fill the tummy, searching for tools to make traps to catch animals for meat, hunting for deers n boars with self made bows n arrows. its so cute!!wat i didnt like abt the game was that, animals are difficult to hunt. i have to set a trap and wait for some cow to appear. or when i walk, sometimes, a deer will be in front of me. i cannot go too near to it becos obviously it will run away. so i have to see which way the deer is heading and set the trap in advance. here's the thing, the deer is heading east, chewing grass on the way, so i placed the trap den wait for it to walk a few more steps den hurray!! but suddenly, it turned and headed north instead. wah lau, ANGRY! waste my time and trap materials.
2nd thing i didnt like was, the girl, skye, is super dependant on keith. wat frustrates me is when i explore for ways out of the island, there are obstacles such as huge boulder in the way, and i have to take skye with me to move it. dragging skye along is frustrating!! cos when i climb up a step, its very fast n easy. but for skye to go up, i have to carry her and throw her up on the step, before i can climb up. and when i'm up, she's still sittin there, in the same position as when i threw her up. keith has to pull her up, before she can continue walkin. wah lau, vomit blood! alot of time wasted on pulling and carrying skye, macham she's disabled. lol.
anyway, i played it with a cheat code, ie, i have infinite life power for skye, she can never go hungry or thirsty. HENG man! otherwise i have to keep worrying abt skye dying on me den game over. after gettin past jungles, solving 7 puzzles in the ruins area (cracked my brains out with the last puzzle man!). keith discovered there are... *drum rolls* other ppl on the island!! lol. but they are some military ppl, the bad guys lah. so i have to stealth my way to steal the speedboat key from the boss. damn funny. and i got outta the island with skye after surviving 55 days on the island. sweet!
the sequel, lost in blue 2, is a relatively new game, n i cannot find the cheatcode for it. so i have to play it like normal loh. game play is almost the same, the character's name is Jack and the girl is Amy. new mini games are included. i have to cook stuff like in the game "cooking mama". quite time consuming lah. cos previously, i jus press "eat" and the characters will eat watever's available. story's the same, jack has to explore the island, leaving amy in the cave or taking her along to complete certain tasks together.. the game developers got smart, this time they made the girl efficient and not incompetent. taking her along is not a chore and she can help me make baskets (to trap small animals) outta the bamboo i collected and stuff like tat. she's more like a helper this time round. which i like. skye was totally wrecked man. lol.
yesterday, i finally get to the savannah area. and im supposed to build a treehouse. it requires in total 28 logs, 30 ropes n 10 leaves in 7 stages of building. damn it. there are only 4 logs in the jungle, and they appear again after like 3 days. ropes was more difficult. i have to collect vines (which there're only abt 5 in the jungle) and den ask amy to help me make into ropes. time consuming loh! but it gives me a sense of satisfaction when i see how beautiful the cave becomes, after efforts to collect materials n upgrading the furniture etc. the characters used to be like lying on leaves. den now they sleep on queen size beds with furs! lol.
meanwhile, i have to catch fish, get twigs and fend off wolves alligators n tigers attacking me. lol. wolf is fun to fight with, because i can jus punch them with my bare fist, dun even need to use spear weapon, and when i've won, whats left behind are 3 things: meat, fur and lard. so hilarious!! one moment i see this wolf running at me. next thing i see are 3 squarish objects. damn funny.
the only downside is, sometimes amy cannot take care of herself while im away. imagine when i'm so far away in the swamps tryin to get across, amy's life n hunger status on the top screen is in danger mode. if drop to 0%, a cutscene will show amy collapsing and GAME OVER. so i have to RUN all the way back to the cave and make her drink n eat. wat the hell? there's 20L of water in the barrel (i found it on the beach after a stormy rainy day) in the cave and 5 packed food on the shelf man!! the water was collected from the river via a 1L water bottle on me. and the packed food (worth abt 30% of easing hunger) was of cos prepared by me. why doesnt amy drink or eat any of that? OMG.i've now spent 78 days on the island. still only at the swamp area. no sight of civilisation. sigh. if amy continues to 陷害我, i wont be surprised if i spend years on the island man! hahahaha.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
我超不爽!!
i have to summarise, cos its a really long story, tat dates back to year 2005. tats the year i graduated rite? hmm.. i tink so lah, haha.
that year was a torturous one. not because of final semester at NUS. i wasn't worried abt school at all, cos i tink i handled studies quite well (haha so bhb). i knew i was going for just bachelor degree, so i just did my part as a student and everythin should be fine.
i had a friend (note: its past tense) who was in FASS, same year as me. oh, its the same person who borrowed my FRIENDS vcd. damn it. i'm jus gonna name this person as Beach**. (bitch? lol) Beach is not exactly from rich family, but she sure looks like one. the clothes, the bags, the make up etc etc, all quite branded. tat year, Beach was arranging with friends to go on a graduation trip to taiwan. i knew she had $ difficulties. and being a kay-poh n stupid idiot, i wanted to help, i even approached another friend Tyler**, to help out. at 1st, Beach was paisay, but den gradually took things for granted. i've never been to taiwan. and i love getting souvenirs. so i asked Beach to get me a small souvenir, she said "of cos lah, you tink i so bad dont get you anythin meh?"
somehow, our friendship started to go spiraling downwards. i was beginnin to wonder if it was even a friendship, cos it felt really one-way on my part. Beach said cos i pissed her off real bad. and i never heard from her since. wat the hell? at tat time, i wasn't mad at myself for helpin her in the 1st place. i was really pissed that she can jus say its my fault and den 拍拍屁股走人.
-1 year later-
Beach smsed my other friend, Carmen**, outta the blue. my friend was shocked to the max! in the sms, Beach said sth like "...just wonderin how u guys are doin. i know, weird thought rite?"
and the next day, Beach smsed me. guess wat? she wans to do financial planning for me. yes, Beach wans me to get policy from her. LOL. she said a seminar speaker was saying sth like must approach all ppl, otherwise, those whom didnt approach in the end kenna illness or watever, den will feel really guilty, like "if only i had gotten him to buy insurance".. tats why she looked me up. HAHAHA. my ass! i tink if i kenna heart disease (touchwood!) she also cant be bothered loh! let alone feel guilty.
-another year later-
which is present time. Tyler ran into some financial problems. i felt so bad, bcos it was me who ask him to help Beach out. i really regretted it. and i wanted to help him. but i don't have much liquid cash around. all i have are assets. so i asked Beach if she can do something. its abt time to repay me and my friend's kindness anyway. but Beach said she didnt TAKE anythin. its me who GAVE her the help. wat the fuck? isn't it the same? give and take is a 2-way thing. i can never "give" anythin unless the other party stretches out and "takes" it. u know wat i mean?
anyway, she jus said that she appreciated my help, but she doesnt expect herself to repay anythin she didnt take. WHAT??
ok so she said she appreciated. but action speaks louder, i heard her say that, but i'm sorry i just didnt SEE it. i had to ASK her to get me souvenir. and in the end? i didnt get anythin. i helped her so much, and yet i didnt get a thing! "of cos lah, you tink i so bad don't get you anythin meh?" really haunted me like hell.
i am so not good at face to face confrontation. im never good at argueing or quarreling. im jus not good with words. if i felt Beach was worth helping, den i dont mind at all. friends are meant to help each other. the thing is, she's definitely not worth my efforts, to think i was so nice to her in the past. damn it. so now i'm stuck. im obliged to help Tyler, i don't have Beach's ruthless guts to say "bye bye its not my problem". 所以, 我就是咽不下这口气, that i have to be the 倒霉鬼/戴罪羔羊 to clear her mess. everythin's spent and forever gone. i can never get anythin back from her. 我超不爽!
BUT to be fair to Beach, given that this was jus my side of the story, she said before that she would love to reciprocate, just that resources are limited. so she said if she has the chance one day, she'll do all she can to repay me.
ok babe, a shoutout to you: here's your chance to repay me, now that u have all the resources and financial ability. so come on do your thing!
long story cut short. im sorry if u blog readers didnt understand the whole thing, bcos its difficult to spell out every single detail. already tried my best to summarise. alot of other things i didnt mention, but year 2005 was a horrible one for me. and that incident's been bugging me ever since. for 2 years odd, every time when i'm alone on train rides, or when i momentarily 放空 durin nitetime in my room, Beach's act of 拍屁股走人 just creeps into my mind. and every time tat happens, a knot is tied somewhere in my muscles, i jus feel tense, upset n 闷. sigh, i hope 不会闷出病来. this thing's been clinging onto me like a burden draggin me down.
i really hope i can get some closure and MOVE ON and den never have anythin to do with Beach anymore.
** for privacy and protection, all names have been changed. lol.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
S.H.E: they make me laugh!! hahaha...
Sunday, September 2, 2007
duno what this heading should be...
jus found out liverpool won derby county 6-0... wahahaha.. tats crazy man! tat time eating mee pok at my house kopitiam with my cousin, we had a perfect view of the plasma tv (nowaways kopitiam very class n rich huh, haha) showing the match between tottenham and derby, we were appalled at derby's defence, cos they allowed hotspurs players to charge at their goalie! the defenders were mostly ball-watching. haha. so now i'm not actually surprise that pool won by so much. and i'm very very happy torres got 2 of those goals. hee hee!!
hmm.. i got problems posting pictures on the right side, cannot even upload man! WHY??? now i cannot update what i'm watching... how???
anyway, finally watched the movie Next (starring nicholas cage and jessica biel, wow she is hot!) i missed it while it was showing in the cinemas. since the story's abt seeing the future, therefore involving "manipulation" of time, there're loopholes here n there. typical rite? almost all the movies abt time traveling, got plot loop holes one. frequency, kate n leopold, butterfly effect, jay chou's secret, just to name a few. i always end up with alot of HUHs? and questions. to quote from nicholas cage's character, "here's the thing about the future. every time you look at, it changes, because you looked at. and that changes everything else." haha. so this Next was like HUH? but fun to watch. hee.Tuesday, August 28, 2007
lost dvd...
that's the thing with lending or borrowing from people. not that i'm chao kuan or what, i don't really like to lend ppl things. cos it either gets lost, or not returned in one piece. and if i do lend, i expected it to be short term, cos if lent too long, time goes by, the person or me for that matter, might have clean forgotten about it. den if i suddenly miraculously remember and ask the person abt it, the usual replies are "got meh?" and "paisay, i lost it liao".
this reminds me of a certain friend i lent my FRIENDS vcd to (ironic, isn't it?). duno she too busy or what, she says she no time to watch it, duno how to operate her vcd player, duno the discs put where... alot of excuses. sigh, it got to a time where i was too paisay to ask abt it liao. den one fine day, she told me she lost it, couldnt find it anywhere. i was like uh-huh... den how? guess whats her reply? she said "i told you i lost it, there's nothing i can do abt it!!!" in a very 理直气壮 manner somemore. wtf. my fault ah? eh, you lost the item tat you borrowed from me, i suppose its natural for me to ask "den how?" rite? still have to cheek to rant back at me. wtf?
after this incident (and many others), i've become apprehensive abt lending stuff to ppl. so whoever borrows things from me, don't mind me for occasionally asking the whereabouts and for unconsciously unknowningly displaying my kanchiong behavior, lol.
that's abt me lending. i also have a fair share of stories of me borrowing. lol. that time when half blood prince was out (how many years ago was that?), i couldn't bear to part my $ for that book, bcos it was too ex. and since my brother isnt gonna get it tat fast either, i had to borrow from a friend. when the friend lent me, he said he hasn't even read it yet, and asked if i could read it asap because his younger brother wanted to read the book fast. hmm, if he was that kanchiong for his brother, den why bother to agree to lend me? anyway, so i managed to read it within 4 days and returned him the book 3 days later, ie, the book was in my possession for a week. i was very careful with the book, i also returned him in the DHL (or whatever) envelope he passed me originally. ok den last month, he smsed me out of the blue, asking if his harry potter book is with me. err. so i told him i already returned him one week after he lent me. he said "got meh? i don't remember" and after several smses to and fro, he said "ok whatever, nevermind" i was like, WHAT THE LAU?! so he didnt believe me, that i already returned it? and is he conveniently blaming me for the unknown location of the damn book? wah lau!! i distinctly remember him constantly reminding me to hurry up finish reading, so his brother can have the book. now 不见了 den come and blame me. wth?
Thursday, August 23, 2007
cousin visiting from holland..
we went to jb loh. walked around, did some shoppin, den we were gonna eat seafood, but i duno the name of the place in malay, i only know 大马花园.. so we were hoping to catch a cab who speaks chinese. tough luck man! a cab stopped for us, but he's malay, i was like "err.. taman.. err hawker center.. eat seafood.." the driver said "oh, taman sri (duno wat he said) hawker centre? yes of cos, hurry get in".. my cousin was like "correct or not??" hahahah... in the end, is correct lah. now i know the place is taman sri tebrau. lol. we ordered the 麦片 crayfish, it was yummy!! SO YUMMY! when we 挖 the 肉出来 in one big piece, it was like so shiok! we ate quite a bit, to me, its quite cheap. so to him, in euro terms, it was even cheaper! hahaha.
OH YAH! i suddenly remember. i walked past my house de kopi tiam on sunday, they were showing the liverpool vs chelsea match, just nice saw the referee gave chelsea a penalty, damn it, it wasnt even a foul loh! the chelsea player anyhow fall down one. damn pissed. liverpool was leading 1-0 loh! den end up the score was 1-1. so angry with the stupid referee. spoil my mood, especially since my torres scored a well taken goal in the 1st half..
Friday, August 17, 2007
super model
通通都是我们的观众
come on come on 快抬头挺胸,
每个座位是你的后座
come on come on 来为自己活,
要相信自己独一无二
通通都别躲在角落, Super Model 这次换你做"
this song damn catchy loh. 可增强我自信心的一首歌...
LOL!!!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
feeling... down...
i feel so out of touch with the world. that time met up with ruyin, and i realised how far behind i am in the movies and entertainment scene. it can be considered a good thing, it jus means im busy with my work n stuff. but also a bad thing, bcos is my life really gonna be jus abt work? OMG. this reminds me of a dream tat i had. i dreamt i was meeting a prospect and i was actually doing presentation! its a good thing, it shows im still professional when it comes to work. but its quite jialat cos it occured to me "这就是我的生活吗?" the dream kinda freaked me out: am i really workaholic?
anyway. feel very down recently. work is stressful. personal life is plain n boring. close friends are drifting apart. sigh. i've come to realise i have my strengths when i service the stranger-type of clients. but when it comes to clients who are my friends, i have alot of weaknesses. what i hope to achieve, is for ppl to think of me when they thought of insurance, sth like "insurance? better to find eileen". that will be the ultimate sign that shows i succeed in this career. but not the other way round, i dun wish ppl to think "eileen? oh, insurance" maybe u mite think there's no difference. but there IS!
coupla mths ago, a gd friend of mine told me he thinks macham we're friends bcos of insurance. sigh. there's only so much time i have. i need to meet new propects, service existing clients etc etc, i hardly have time to hang out w friends. so wat i do, is to make myself efficient. when i hangout with friends, if need be, ill 顺便 update them. den no need to arrange another session rite? eh, come to tink of it, i realise the friend has too high standards, expects too much from me liao. lets sat i meet friend A for coffee, i kept it most professional, talk abt policy. he gets angry n says it feels we're friends cos of insurance. ok so i change my way of servicing. this time, i meet the same friend A for movie n dinner, along the way during conversation, i update him. he gets annoyed when i talk abt insurance. ok fine, dun talk. i meet friend A again, this time, we talked abt holidays, movies, politics, weather. everything but insurance. den later, friend A decided to lapse my plan n switch to another because he says i didn't tell him anythin. alamak, wat am i to do?
i remember a friend told me, im only in a pond now. if small little things like tat can upset me, how am i gonna survive when im in the ocean next time? den i realised, as much as i wan to, i really cannot be superwoman n please everybody. there will bound to be ppl who will lapse policies with me bcos of invalid reasons. there will always be ppl tryin to be funny. i already considered all these factors b4 i joined the business. i know this kinda thing will happen, especially when i start to do cases with strangers. i jus didnt think these same factors will bite me in the ass via close friends. sigh.
so, ALOT of ppl ask me "is being an insurance agent really that 风光 n good money?" my answer is obvious. got good, got bad. bcos of our job nature, alot of unhappiness can only 往肚里吞. when u visit the bank, u rarely hear bank officers complain or say bad things in front of u rite? lol. thats why ppl usually only hear the good stuff, and naturally they think its easy business.
another thing i noticed. some of my working friends are still super apprehensive abt doing CPF investments. they are afraid of losing as they hear alot of stories where ppl dun make profits. hmmm.. when u strike lottery, do u go around tellin the whole world u won? unlikely. but when u buy 4D n missed one digit, will u complain abt it whenever u meet someone? affirmative. its very singaporean loh. lol.
its good to do CPF investments, well-advised ones lah. ppl think they wont lose anythin if dun do any investments, i beg to differ. how much will ur CPF reserves shrink to, after 30 years, if stay stagnant? alamak, who's not afraid of losing $? i also scared what! but really tink abt it, if i dun take any action to make my $ grow faster, i will definitely lose. DEFINITELY.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
problems with pictures on the right...
anyway, i love this song by stanley huang. this song was out sometime in the year 2003, so not exactly new lah, haha. “音浪太强不晃, 会被撞到地上... 抽离身体放开自己... 地心引力抓不住你” haha.. so cool man.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
the fun of watching drama...
i finished watching this HK drama abt a week after i bought it. hahahaha.. its 40 episodes lor! the plot is somewhat predictible, but intriguing. all thanks to the brillant performance by HK actors. i tink local drama is ok, but personally, somehow, i find the scripts and dialogues not very gd. i happened to watch the 7pm show on channel 8, wah lau, the quarrel scenes damn silly, me tv show lover also find it unbearable, means really cannot make it man! sigh. how i miss local dramas of the past. like 金牌师爷, 最后一个大侠, 迷离夜!! wah.. last time period drama very nice one leh.. now add special effects (and its not even nice effects) and weird costumes, duno become what funny funny drama. sigh. collaboration with taiwan or china, the end result also not say very good. duno why, but they jus dun appeal to me. maybe should try working with the HK side. haha. HK drama different. especially this Heart of Greed. the quarrelings very exciting. only 2 words to say: 精彩! haha. my mom borrowed from me the drama. and she's watching it like 4 hours straight daily. duno she finished liao not. she found the ringtone of small Bao (moses chan's character) very amusing, she kept rewinding and replaying the part. hahaha!!
Saturday, July 21, 2007
sunset in bali...
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
flying to bali...
and i havent watched harry potter! alamak, self-proclaimed movie freak, this kinda blockbuster normally i watch on 1st day opening or sneak. but harry potter til now i haven't watched!! *sceams*
ps: i went to cut hair yesterday, the stylist asked me if i secondary student. hahahah!! i was laughin my ass off under the black cover sheet thing. anyway, i dun like the way she cuts it.. sigh. the hairdressers i like all move shops to dunno where. the one in far east i duno where she moved to. anyone knows?
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
DS lite games recently completed...
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
in love with Elva Hsiao and SHE...
i'm in love with elva's new song, 表白. (the 1st song on my this playlist now) i think its very upbeat, altho quite techno, i like! bcos it puts me in a cheery mood. on the train ride to office this morning, i put the song on repeat mode on my ipod, and i ended up listenin to the song for 16x. hahahahah... i tink i'm addicted to the song liao. not that i have anybody to 表白 to, haha, jus think its a nice song, very suited for elva. and when i listen to it, i feel 超 high 的. 最近常常自high. hahahah!!!
next, i'm in love with SHE. cos i realised they are really very funny n hilarious! and like to 耍宝 all the time.. hahaaha..
and i tink Hebe is very cute n sexy. hahahah!!
i saw them being interviewed on an entertainment news show, they were in their hotel room, with ppl doing their hair n make up.
#1 reason to love them, they are all playin DS Lite! haha.
#2 reason to love them, the following conversation took place:
Selina: This dog's name is now Hebe! haha!
Hebe: Oh shit oh shit, oh shoot oh shoot...
Selina: (speakin to the microphone on her DS) Sit!
Ella: 你讲台语, ZEH BEY!! ('sit down' in hokkien)
*at this time im already laughin like mad*
Selina: 不行啦!
Ella: 你用台语训练它啦, 为什么要养个外国狗?
Selina: Zeh!! (she also 暗笑) 它会 con-few-si 啦 (that's the way she pronounced confused, haha)
Ella: 你给我 zeh bey!
Selina: 人家是英文系的. Sit! 你看, 'sit' 它立刻就了解.
Ella: 你是叫它 ker 'si' (去死), 它当然会讲 "ho, wa ker si" (好, 我去死)
Selina: bo lah!!
Ella: 你说 '好! 你 ker si, niao 屁!' 看它会不会应.
hahahah.. damn hilarious! i laughed til cannot make it...
i really need laughter in my life.
Friday, July 6, 2007
fernando torres come liverpool!!!